First day of the funeral wake for my grandfather was tiring. This will be a quick post because I am super duper ultra mega tired :/

My mom dragged me out of bed this morning at 7 because we had to go for my grandfather's funeral wake :/ Took so long to find a black shirt, without any bright colours :/ Argh.

All my relatives had to perform some rituals when my grandfather's coffin was pushed in, but me and my mother just sat at a corner, praying.

I couldn't help it, but broke down. Not that I was sad my grandfather's leaving us, but the fact that I wasn't sure whether he accepted Christ made me feel all worried and .. just speechless. It never occured to me that I would cry that badly during his wake. Others were crying cos they miss him, but I cried because of the uncertainty of where he was going.

My mom cried and told me that she tried to save him. He did make some response when my mother was sharing Christ with him, but because he was semi-concious, we didn't know what his response was, but I guess all we can do is just have faith.

I felt God telling me, to really reach out to the ones around me. I don't want another of this kinda thing to happen again. It really hurts to see your loved ones not getting saved. Thank God my mother had the chance to share with him in the hospital. I don't wanna regret when things cannot be undone anymore.

So I spent my whole morning and afternoon there, before I went off to church. I didn't get to go for section dinner with the rest, so sad. But I went to do my tags for camp tmr! Woohoo!

Rushed back to the funeral wake after that and stayed till 12 midnight before leaving. Tmr's gonna be the same again. Church camp tmr (: I really hope and expect to see something change in me from this camp (:

Anyway, I was helping my mother count the money from those visitors who come and pay their respect. Yah, I don't exactly know what it's called. Hmmmm.

And I was looking through the list of people who came and pay their respects, got quite a few cute name ah. Hahaha, like Hei Gou, Ah Lian, Botak, Pancake.. All my relatives' friends. Super cute name, I couldn't stop laughing when I saw that. Haha.

And my uncle was trying to tell my aunt to write down the person's name, who came and gave some money too.

Super funny. He can't pronounce oh-elle-dee. HOHO. Super cute.

And yay! I got the picture of my little cute cousin! HOHOHO.

I wanna adopt him as my little brotherrr!

Okay, off to camp tmr. I'm really tired. Farewell everyone!

Woke up really early this morning for training. And for once, I reached before 9. Yeah man (: I was amazed at myself too!

Training was horrible for me. My muscles feel all so relaxed and I couldn't gather enough energy to lift the balls up :/ Super tired, and I think I'm getting injured. Oh welll!

Rushed down to Tan Tock Seng Hospital after that cos my mom told me my grandfather was really sick and in a critical condition. Went there to take a last look of my grandfather. I saw how he had difficulty in breathing, my heart really ached. Though I won't say I was close to him at all in my entire life, but I know he was still my grandfather after all.

The hospital looked like some childcare centre with all my little tiny cousins around. And they were super noisy and everything. Hahaha, but they're so cute. Here's a picture of my little cousin! (; I think he's very cuteee (:

Went to church at around 1 plus. And I got stuck at Newton Mrt! Cos it was raining so heavily there, and 171 wasn't appearing anytime soon, I wanted to cab down. And I still told my mother that I had 7 bucks, enough for me to survive the day. But I forgot that I spent my last 5 bucks on tidbits yesterday! Food robs me of my money! $$$

So I was desperately calling for help. SOS. But no one came to my rescue, only Francesca did! But because she was late for church too, in the end Maurice saved me. Haahaha, for that, I'll stop calling him fatty for a month.

Had camp leaders meeting, and we played some games before that. Super funny la! Hahaha, we played catching and stuff. And we had to like join hands and only the two people at the end of the line can catch others. And because I was in the middle, I was being pulled at both sides, and I felt really elongated sideways after that. How I wish they pulled my hair and my legs, so that I can grow taller :/

Played more basketball at Bible College after meeting with the church adults! Super fun (: Then it was dinner with them.

I'm home now and I wanna go out out out. Argh, but no one's gonna accompany me. Boohoo. Okay, time to do some camp stuff!

Brainwash!

Missed training today cos I had to go change my passport photo. I was so happy and excited because I could finally find the time to go down to Lavender and eat my favourite MEE POK! But sad to say, it was closed. And how rare for it to actually close. SAD CASE.

Went to settle my passport, and I had to take my passport photo before that. The woman at the photo taking booth was so rude! The government has this policy that all fringe must not cover the eyebrows. And I'm so sorry my fringe refuses to stay in place and it drops everytime I move. But she was so rude, she made me wait at the side, cos she thought I was hogging on to the queue. Like okay. I ended up pinning my hair and because my spectacles was reflective, I had to use their spectacles, which was squarish and it didn't have lens. And therefore, I ended up really looking retarded :/ ( & don't tell me I always do :/)

SO ANNOYING! I waited till my butt rotted before it was my turn at the counter, and this mother and son beside me started talking about first three months. And the mother was like telling the son to start studying though its first three months, and his GP and blah blah blah. Aunty ah, I'm taking A Levels and I don't find myself worrying that much. Parents now adays... tsktsk.

Headed to work after that (I dread). Started my daily routine of checking the stocks for books and HALLELUJAH! Tmr's my last day at work! Oh I'll miss this really cute aunty there, HAHA. She told me that if I'm tired, I could like stick myself in the socket, to get energy :/ -faints. But she's really nice (:

Met Yujia, Jerlyn and Hweeyi after work to have dinner together before prayer meeting! & I ate my favourite Grilled Chicken Foldover. Hohoho.

Prayer meeting was good (: And one thing I left remembering is that, to get the authority of God in us, we first have to start with a deeper intimacy with God. And that's what I gotta do!

Good night! Work tmr again :/ & I've to visit my grandfather in hospital. Bahhhh.

After prayer meeting..

I want a Christmas partaayyeee (:

I surrender all.